subj: oh man

I was thinking I’d be able to resist trying to bother you. Like I’m doing good not texting haha.

Ok so . Right now
I drank the whole bottle we left the time you were in here, I was trying not to smoke. So I just smoked , haha funny right. Watched san jose sharks hockey, saw the warriors lose bad. And I want to work but right now, I just viewed some personals on craigslist, looked at my match.com profiles and checked out that girl (girl1), oh man. I definitely put that girl on this different level. I saw a photo of her today (one.jpg). Ok two reactions, first was hmm cute. 2nd I like her. Hahaha there was a delay between the two, but yeah. I feel like a role reversal with her, she’s avoiding me cause we discussed to avoid each other. I messaged her this past Friday or Saturday I believe, complementing her score on typing race cause she has way more money than I do. (just added Nouvelle Vauge to itunes then played a few games of typing race on FB hahha shit shiny penny for real.) and commenting about the tv show LOST. Hahaha I thought enough time passed that we can be friends, but I guess she doesn’t want to talk to me cause of (girl2). I have to stop testing her and just let her not be in contact with me. (girl2) said (girl1) should of understood that I was off limits, that it was tacit knowledge (girl2) claimed me. (Haha I hope that’s the right way to use that word right in a sentence.) (played video games now it’s 1am shit, time flew by. It was 1030 when I started this thing. Now I’m in my room and I just thought about what you said about how you’re into music. All this music you’re introducing me, I didn’t even have a hint to who these people were. Then it hit me, you DO know you’re music, it’s tripping me out right now. I’m very excited actually, a big smile did come across my face. Haha it was awesome, yes I love music too but I don’t get music. For me I like music I don’t pay attention to? Does that make sense, it’s like I like all music the one’s I don’ tlike are the one’s I notice. So yeah. But some I get into, like really get into. )

Anyways. I’m over what was typing previously. I don’t feel that way anymore. Haha. But it’s crazy to be aware of the influx of my emotions. But yes, I also feel so happy my mouth throws up all this information, I’m not even thinking of censoring I’m just typing!!!! Fuck, this is how I use to write my blogs. But now everyone is watching can’t be as free as you’d like. I book marked your play list. The keywords I used were “imeem” “playlists” I plan on bookmarking a lot from this site. I used it before but now I’m going to really use it. Fuck my itunes. Haha I’m flashing back to my pandora days. Oh joy.

And yes. Jazz is what I’m even more excited about. As I listen to this music, “no mercy for me” I’m listening to the piano.