wake, the fuck up

Dear Self,

What the fuck are you doing right now? Are you really going to blame 'analysis paralysis'? (It's fun just saying it isn't it) You keep thinking you have so much to do but can't do anything for it. Or you don't do anything for it. You just sit there doing nothing blaming it all on that. You already know what to do, you are smart enough to figure that out. Write it out, you have to do some work. You can't just do everything in your head and think that's good enough. You can't possibly think it's going to work. (As I'm writing this I realize I should type out what i need to do)

Well let's break it down and work it out here. Finances. You have that article that describes a certain money saving method. Follow that. Write out what you actually make then follow the formula. Not that fucking hard, but all you do is just think. think think think. take the time to sit down write it out. don't say you need an accountability partner to do it. you can force yourself to do it without the help of others.

Dating. Are you joining match are you not joining match? make up your mind already, you talk about how you're going to do it and it's going to be fun. you've already reviewed profiles and thought of what to say, or a general idea at least. stop doing it in your head and just do it. you've gone out, you've met new people. just last friday you went out to a bar. danced with new people and didn't follow up. although wasn't your fault you thought you were going to see them later that night, so we won't call that a fail. but you did have fun, need to now just do it and see what's out there. the timing of your bonus helps, now the money isn't an issue like you make it out to be.

Coding. Stop being all shiny penny about that bullshit. Pick one and study it. You need to, time is of the essence. You're losing money by not learning it. FUCK, sit down pay attention and just do it. You keep changing your mind about which system you're going to learn. You have been given a book for free, read it and learn.

Piano. Take the time to practice everyday and work for a piano stand. your desk does not count.

weird writing this letter trying to talk to you in the 4th(existential) person? Or is it 2nd?

to end, wake the fuck up and do your shit already. execute what you've been thinking already and get yours.

-yourself.